SUNDAY, March 22, 2020
Luke 22: 41-42
He withdrew about a stone’s throw beyond them, knelt down and prayed, 42 “Father, if you are willing, take
this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.
Do you have places of disappointments and discouragement that loom over a situation? These can weigh heavily on one’s heart. It may be with a relationship, or a career; outcomes hoped for that in the natural are showing no signs of progress. You wonder “is He listening? Does He hear me? Or is it just a matter of time?” In the bigger picture of life, things are good. But there’s this one dark place, a little black hole that sometimes doesn’t always feel little. I must confess that during these times I struggle with praying for God’s will to be done, and I question His timing and plans – – especially when His (timing and plans) do not match mine!
Recently I read something in a devotional that helped me cope during these “I want my prayer answered how and when I want” times. It read, “Every time I turn to God and ask Him to shed light on my situation, I’m trading a little of my struggle for a bit of His strength.” I like that – – look at the strength I’m gaining in this process. And look at the reality that a black hole isn’t a black whole. Despite the fact that there are issues that I continually pray to be resolved and for valid reasons, I also do not want to let Satan use this frustration to darken my outlook. THAT’s key!
This may not mean my circumstances will feel peaceful. It probably will NOT mean that all of my relationship troubles and hardships suddenly get better. Nor will it mean the prayers I pray suddenly all get answered. But what it does mean is that my mind can be steadied with Truth instead of overrun with thoughts of fear, anxiety and worst-case scenarios. Which is exactly where I know I for one can tend to go unless I choose to rest in the words of Christ when he prayed, “Yet I want your will to be done, not mine’” (Luke 22:42b). It will be a struggle, but this Lenten season especially, I want to listen for, hear and know the Heavenly Father’s voice in my life AND be willing to accept His truth and ways without arguing, begging or trying to convince Him that I know what’s best. By truly wanting to seek His will to be done – – instead of my own.